- I haven't like like someone in a really long time, hell lets face it I haven't like like someone since the father. And in all honesty I don't know how I feel about that, the rebellious side of me says fuck it and just like the dam boy but the very rational side of me says no way get out now while its still early.
- I think about why waste time and energy with someone and it doesn't go anywhere. Not to say that he some loser dude and doesn't have a future because I wouldn't even bother with him if that was the case. I just think the age difference is so drastic. Yes he is quite younger than me but when we hanging out it doesn't feel that way. He totally knows how to take control(which I like in a guy) he makes me feel sexy and attractive(not that I don't know I already am) and I just have a great time even when we just chillin at his place.
- Which leaves me back to the original bullet of it makes me nerves and scares me that I like him. Of course I'm playing it cool just because that's my steez(style), he always make reference as to our future and what we are going to do, where we going to live and etc. I think its cute. He also drops settle statements like "I would be jealous if you were out with someone else", I know he likes me back but I'm more concerned with my feelings. I don't want to be that woman who is scared to let go and like like someone, I guess because I know I'm not really like that. We are going to Atlantic City this Friday to see Trey Songz and Big Sean in concert(pics coming), I'm so excited for the concert and to spend the weekend with him.
Tuesday, February 28, 2012
do you like like him or just like him?
Wow it has been a month since I have blog and honestly I was avoiding it for some odd reason. Every time I would open up the internet I would intentionally not click on blogger, I wanna say I'm not sure what that was about but I think I know what it was about. Its been totally about route 26, I didn't want to blog to much about him again why I don't know but when I think about I think its because I actually like him and it scares me. It scares me for so many different reasons:
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
"I got a story to tell" - notorious b.i.g
Friday morning I woke up to my oldest throwing up all over her bed oh and I went to bed cleaning up the bathroom because the middle child was throwing up as well, which means I had to call out. Which I was pretty annoyed since I like to use my sick time to do something fun not actually for what it's meant for but I'm mommy so oh well. I tended to sick kids all day but not before I took that annoying little boy of mines to the daycare, yes I did he was the only one that wasn't sick and he had already started to annoy everyone by trying to push Ayanna out of my bed, he swear he owns me. So of course by noon my stomach started to feel queasy and I'm not the vomiting type so I ended up with diarrhea(i know TMI) and what felt like a diaper rash but that lasted all of Friday and was pretty much over by Sat and the same for them. But of course that didn't stop my Friday night shenanigans......
Earlier I had texted route 26 and told him that I didn't want to drink because my stomach was upset, his response "boooooooo". So we ended up hanging out around my area at Caseys', which is pretty much a mixed crowd restaurant/bar. Of course he gets me a drink and is trying to convince me that if I drink it may help my stomach(really??) so now I'm drinking and worried that the bubble guts are going to start in the bar. He assures me that if I do get the bubble guts its ok and I'm still sexy(*rolling eyes). He's playing pool and I'm watching when all of a sudden this white chick comes up to me and says "hi I wanted to come over and tell you that your man is a fucking hottie, I'm not trying to be disrespectful because are a gorgeous woman but he is a total fucking hottie". Ummmm ok! She then goes on to tell me that she is usually not attracted to black guys, hispanic guys and white guys with blonde hair blue eyes, she only like italian men, men with light skin dark hair and dark eyes and her name is Krista.(by the way Krista and her crew are no spring chickens, she is a mother of 4 with 1 grandchild, she looks great, she has these huge breast that she insist on sitting on my arm because she is so close to me) So I'm totally caught off guard, I tell her ok I don't feel no disrespect yes I agree he is a hottie and he's not black or hispanic but thanks. By then she had made me part of her crew she's introducing me to her friends and even her dark hair dark eye boyfriend of 4 years Bob! She then introduces me to a very drunk Kevin(another one of her friends) who starts to obsess over me. He sits across from me and starts telling how pretty I am and asking who am I here with. I let him know that my friend is over there at this point route 26 see's what happening and walks over, Kevin gets up and that's the end, you would think. Krista insist that I come over to the bar and do some shots with her and her crew, I really don't want to but route 26 thinks its funny and is pushing me to go ahead. We did a shot called chocolate covered pretzel and it was extremely good, here comes Kevin on the other side of me. Again telling me how much he is attracted to me(ugggg). Krista tells him don't even try it Kevin she is a beautiful women and don't be just trying to get some pussy......WHAT! Whoa whoa whoa now how did we end up here?!?!! She going on about if he likes me then he should take me out with all of them tomorrow for lunch around 2pm because they all are meeting up. I'm trying to get a word in and explain that won't be necessary all the while I"m looking over for route 26 and moving my chair back so I can make my escape. Bob(krista's boyfriend) calls her over, when she walks away I go to get up and Kevin comes around the other side and is now face to face with me, asking am I ok to get home. I tell him I'm fine I told you I'm here with someone I go to get up and he tries to kiss me....WTF?!?!! I push him and walk over to where I was sitting, I didn't realize that he was following me, as I'm sitting down I see him and he is yelling "what why because of him". What in the world?!?!! Route 26 at this point is walking over toward him asking "what the fuck is going on and what is your problem" oh lawd!! Kevin comes to his senses and apologizes and walks away.
I swear see what happens when I jump back out in the dating realm
Earlier I had texted route 26 and told him that I didn't want to drink because my stomach was upset, his response "boooooooo". So we ended up hanging out around my area at Caseys', which is pretty much a mixed crowd restaurant/bar. Of course he gets me a drink and is trying to convince me that if I drink it may help my stomach(really??) so now I'm drinking and worried that the bubble guts are going to start in the bar. He assures me that if I do get the bubble guts its ok and I'm still sexy(*rolling eyes). He's playing pool and I'm watching when all of a sudden this white chick comes up to me and says "hi I wanted to come over and tell you that your man is a fucking hottie, I'm not trying to be disrespectful because are a gorgeous woman but he is a total fucking hottie". Ummmm ok! She then goes on to tell me that she is usually not attracted to black guys, hispanic guys and white guys with blonde hair blue eyes, she only like italian men, men with light skin dark hair and dark eyes and her name is Krista.(by the way Krista and her crew are no spring chickens, she is a mother of 4 with 1 grandchild, she looks great, she has these huge breast that she insist on sitting on my arm because she is so close to me) So I'm totally caught off guard, I tell her ok I don't feel no disrespect yes I agree he is a hottie and he's not black or hispanic but thanks. By then she had made me part of her crew she's introducing me to her friends and even her dark hair dark eye boyfriend of 4 years Bob! She then introduces me to a very drunk Kevin(another one of her friends) who starts to obsess over me. He sits across from me and starts telling how pretty I am and asking who am I here with. I let him know that my friend is over there at this point route 26 see's what happening and walks over, Kevin gets up and that's the end, you would think. Krista insist that I come over to the bar and do some shots with her and her crew, I really don't want to but route 26 thinks its funny and is pushing me to go ahead. We did a shot called chocolate covered pretzel and it was extremely good, here comes Kevin on the other side of me. Again telling me how much he is attracted to me(ugggg). Krista tells him don't even try it Kevin she is a beautiful women and don't be just trying to get some pussy......WHAT! Whoa whoa whoa now how did we end up here?!?!! She going on about if he likes me then he should take me out with all of them tomorrow for lunch around 2pm because they all are meeting up. I'm trying to get a word in and explain that won't be necessary all the while I"m looking over for route 26 and moving my chair back so I can make my escape. Bob(krista's boyfriend) calls her over, when she walks away I go to get up and Kevin comes around the other side and is now face to face with me, asking am I ok to get home. I tell him I'm fine I told you I'm here with someone I go to get up and he tries to kiss me....WTF?!?!! I push him and walk over to where I was sitting, I didn't realize that he was following me, as I'm sitting down I see him and he is yelling "what why because of him". What in the world?!?!! Route 26 at this point is walking over toward him asking "what the fuck is going on and what is your problem" oh lawd!! Kevin comes to his senses and apologizes and walks away.
I swear see what happens when I jump back out in the dating realm
Thursday, January 19, 2012
we a bad combo
Yea Wednesday night bestie and I find our way hanging out at the gangsta boogie and we had a guuuuuud time. Of course she got to my house late and I was under my covers in my bed, we started with some tropical rum at my house which was really sweet so we just drank it straight. I think we got there around 1030 which is unusual for me, I'm the person who if I don't leave the house atleast by 9 I'm not going and I'm cool with it. I don't know what that's about but anyway I saw a former co-worker, now this guy really liked me when we worked together and didn't care that I was married at the time. He always mad comments about how he wanted to take me out, he liked me and even once said that he wanted to me to take his money. I saw him and of course he started buying drinks and half way thru the night him and bestie was sister and brother dancing and really carrying on. I gave him my number and said I would let him take me out and he was very excited to find that I was no longer a married women. We ended up staying alot longer than we thought since we were having such a good time. This morning I wasn't too banged up and was able to pull myself together and get to work about 930am, shortly after I got in my office he called me and asked if I wanted breakfast. Sure! So he stopped at the diner and brought me an omelet, sausage and o.j to my office soooooo I'm thinking I will keep him around for awhile.
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
Oh what a night...or two maybe three
I need to get my mind into school work although the semester only started last week I have plenty reading that needs to be done. Contract law already requires reading 3 chapters which is alot but we didn't have class yesterday because of MLK day so I got some time. My family law class is tonight and I started reading the chapter yesterday, I should be done by tonight.
I'm so preoccupied with guys I feel like a teenage girl, this past weekend was really ridiculous. I hung out with route 26 Fri, Sat and Sun I know ridiculous. He has been occupying my weekends for the past 4 wknds, I don't know whats wrong with me I haven't even made time for the other guy I was talking and that is not like me I like to keep my options open until I'm sure about the other person. Friday I wanted to hangout with bestie and go to Big Bang in center city(bar/lounge) but "26" insisted that we see each other because he was working overtime this weekend and wasn't sure when we would see each other again. So we end up hanging out playing pool and this cute bar/lounge in his neighborhood of course I was the darkest person in the room which really didn't matter to me just thought it was kinda funny. We had a good time I was pretty tipsy and he did mention that I was much loser than usual, in a good way. Sat we ended up around the way in north philly at the clock bar, which I call the gangsta boogie. Neighborhood ghetto bar that serves awesome drinks and to die for seafood and I know they make plenty money and refuse to do and renovations to the place. We ate and drank, I swear I cannot hang like I use to it took everything in me to keep my eyes open. Then Sun we just hung out at his place and relaxed and talked alot about what we looking for, other people we seeing, how interested are we in each other which I barely could do because I was soooo sleepy. Part of me feels like how can I be in something serious with someone so much younger than I am and then I think about how men do it all the time. So I decided to not over think it go with the flow and see what happens. I did fall asleep for a bit and end up getting home like 3am and had to be to work at 8am. Yea I'm doing too much.
I'm so preoccupied with guys I feel like a teenage girl, this past weekend was really ridiculous. I hung out with route 26 Fri, Sat and Sun I know ridiculous. He has been occupying my weekends for the past 4 wknds, I don't know whats wrong with me I haven't even made time for the other guy I was talking and that is not like me I like to keep my options open until I'm sure about the other person. Friday I wanted to hangout with bestie and go to Big Bang in center city(bar/lounge) but "26" insisted that we see each other because he was working overtime this weekend and wasn't sure when we would see each other again. So we end up hanging out playing pool and this cute bar/lounge in his neighborhood of course I was the darkest person in the room which really didn't matter to me just thought it was kinda funny. We had a good time I was pretty tipsy and he did mention that I was much loser than usual, in a good way. Sat we ended up around the way in north philly at the clock bar, which I call the gangsta boogie. Neighborhood ghetto bar that serves awesome drinks and to die for seafood and I know they make plenty money and refuse to do and renovations to the place. We ate and drank, I swear I cannot hang like I use to it took everything in me to keep my eyes open. Then Sun we just hung out at his place and relaxed and talked alot about what we looking for, other people we seeing, how interested are we in each other which I barely could do because I was soooo sleepy. Part of me feels like how can I be in something serious with someone so much younger than I am and then I think about how men do it all the time. So I decided to not over think it go with the flow and see what happens. I did fall asleep for a bit and end up getting home like 3am and had to be to work at 8am. Yea I'm doing too much.
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
Route 26
Things are under way officially, classes started last night and of course the annoying lady from the last class is in this one as well. Yes the annoying one that said:
Yes her, since we have the same major I guess I'm not surprised to see her whatever but she appears to be ready to annoy the class already raising her hand at every little thing the prof said last night.
The past two weekends I have been hanging out with 26 and have been having a great time. I"m still pretty tickled with myself at the idea of our age difference since I'm a lady I wont reveal my age but I am quite older. He lives in the far Northeast in a pretty nice neighborhood which is were we hung out the first time we went out but this past Friday he asked if I would be comfortable hanging out in his old neighborhood. Which was of course in the hood, near K&A which is real hood area so he has no idea who he's talking to so I tell him I'm cool hanging in the hood as long as the place we going he is comfortable with. As we ride past go go bar(do they call it that anymore) he asked me if I have ever been to one, once again he has no idea who he's asking such questions. I tell him yes I have been to a strip bar and it doesn't bother me. A little known fact about me is I used to be a dancer quite some time ago, before the kids, the big hips and extra fluff I have now. I didn't tell him that not because of being ashamed just because everything has a time and place. Anywho we went to a small lounge/bar sat and talked, he drinks long island and we all remember the last time I had a long island if not check here. So yes I got tipsy really quick which was fine with me since I was having a good time talking with him, he's very affectionate(which I like). He ended up playing a game of pool because I clearly was not capable, once he was done we sat around a little more and then left. We ended up at his place and watched Karate Kid(which I had never seen) we did some drunk makeout and then I finally pulled myself together and left and I didn't end up getting home til about 4am. He asked to see me before the week started considering classes starting so I ended up there Sunday night watching another movie Apocalypto, which turned out to be very good. It was about Maya Civilization and since I have always been a history buff I was very interested and pleased with the movie. It's a 2006 movie but still interesting....
So I ended up screwing the young ladd and it turned out pretty decent. He asked to hang out this coming Friday, I am so having a good time.
Professor: whats the difference from criminal law and civil law?
Annoying lady: the difference between criminal law and civil law is, umm ummm criminal law
is not civil law......
Professor: (blank stare) any one else?
The past two weekends I have been hanging out with 26 and have been having a great time. I"m still pretty tickled with myself at the idea of our age difference since I'm a lady I wont reveal my age but I am quite older. He lives in the far Northeast in a pretty nice neighborhood which is were we hung out the first time we went out but this past Friday he asked if I would be comfortable hanging out in his old neighborhood. Which was of course in the hood, near K&A which is real hood area so he has no idea who he's talking to so I tell him I'm cool hanging in the hood as long as the place we going he is comfortable with. As we ride past go go bar(do they call it that anymore) he asked me if I have ever been to one, once again he has no idea who he's asking such questions. I tell him yes I have been to a strip bar and it doesn't bother me. A little known fact about me is I used to be a dancer quite some time ago, before the kids, the big hips and extra fluff I have now. I didn't tell him that not because of being ashamed just because everything has a time and place. Anywho we went to a small lounge/bar sat and talked, he drinks long island and we all remember the last time I had a long island if not check here. So yes I got tipsy really quick which was fine with me since I was having a good time talking with him, he's very affectionate(which I like). He ended up playing a game of pool because I clearly was not capable, once he was done we sat around a little more and then left. We ended up at his place and watched Karate Kid(which I had never seen) we did some drunk makeout and then I finally pulled myself together and left and I didn't end up getting home til about 4am. He asked to see me before the week started considering classes starting so I ended up there Sunday night watching another movie Apocalypto, which turned out to be very good. It was about Maya Civilization and since I have always been a history buff I was very interested and pleased with the movie. It's a 2006 movie but still interesting....
So I ended up screwing the young ladd and it turned out pretty decent. He asked to hang out this coming Friday, I am so having a good time.
Thursday, January 5, 2012
Cougar? Yes say it loud and proud
I was reading an article about Mariah Carey and Nick Cannon and I didn't realize she was 10 years older than him. WOW 10 years is alot I mean no doubt she is absolutely beautiful but we know the saying "beauty fades dumb is forever", no I"m not calling her dumb I know they are in love which is wonderful. What I am saying is I can't imagine being 40something and having to satisfy my much younger husband sexually, I mean really! Not saying that 40, 50 hell even 60 year old people aren't having a healthy sex life, I just imagine it with other people in there age range not 10 years their junior. When I'm 50 I don't think I want someone jumping up and down on me every other day and giving out blow jobs (then again maybe I would;).
With that said I have been talking to this 26year old guy for a few weeks now, we hung out last weekend and we both had a good time. side bar: the other day I was telling bestie that when I meet a guy I have to immediately be able to look at him and say to myself whether or not I can see myself having sex with him. We laughed at that but in all honesty it's true and she agreed with me, not saying it will happen immediately(well not all the time) but I have to have that sexual attraction for me to even want to get to know him. So guys some of us girls think that way too....
Anyway we have a plan to hang out again this Friday, its funny because I"m really out of my comfort zone but I am going forward nothing to lose. He seems pretty decent he's Hawaiian(yes his mom still lives there), works for Peco energy has his own place no kids, so of course I asked what does he possible want with this older women with 3 kids. He gave the right answer and I am kinda impressed with the conversations we have. We played pool and of course he the opportunity to hold me on the waist and get close, I like his confidence. So me to Mariah, I have it together enough get a younger man's attention.
With that said I have been talking to this 26year old guy for a few weeks now, we hung out last weekend and we both had a good time. side bar: the other day I was telling bestie that when I meet a guy I have to immediately be able to look at him and say to myself whether or not I can see myself having sex with him. We laughed at that but in all honesty it's true and she agreed with me, not saying it will happen immediately(well not all the time) but I have to have that sexual attraction for me to even want to get to know him. So guys some of us girls think that way too....
Anyway we have a plan to hang out again this Friday, its funny because I"m really out of my comfort zone but I am going forward nothing to lose. He seems pretty decent he's Hawaiian(yes his mom still lives there), works for Peco energy has his own place no kids, so of course I asked what does he possible want with this older women with 3 kids. He gave the right answer and I am kinda impressed with the conversations we have. We played pool and of course he the opportunity to hold me on the waist and get close, I like his confidence. So me to Mariah, I have it together enough get a younger man's attention.
Wednesday, January 4, 2012
just STOP
So a few months back I mentioned r-ex randomly texted me and we where going to meet up for drinks and talk but I just really didn't see any need to so we didn't. Every now and then he will send me a text which I wouldn't mind but it always turns into some kind of irritation. So maybe a month ago I decided that I would hang out with him I said to myself why not(first mistake), I"m enjoying life dating plenty. We set a time and the crazy thing is bestie was hanging out and told me to meet her after I hang with him. So he was suppose to come to my place at 830 9, I text him with no response. 915 comes and goes with nothing from him, so I just decide to go ahead and meet bestie after I leave r-ex a message/text. The next morning he sends me a text saying he had an emergency, SERIOUSLY. I went against all my intuition and decided to hang out with him and kicks some bullpuss about an emergency. This is the same person I left almost 10years ago, I mean really! I let him know that I really don't care about the emergency just to leave me alone. So here we are again we texting and he makes mention he wants to hang out at the time I wasn't doing anything but I really didn't feel like getting up so I said what about tomorrow. He's all like no, tonight I say fine whatever and low and behold when its time to met up something comes up again. Now I started thinking he was doing this intentionally I mean come on. So when I tell him in so many words that he is still a jerk he has the nerve to give me attitude(LOL). The sad thing is if he is after almost 10years of not being together he still wants to play some kind of game with me, how sad is that! I am fine with not talking to him, so last night he texts me asking "what am I doing" and I say "whats up" he's all like "nevermind". Dude, WTF?!?!! Whatever game, ego trip or delusional psychosis your on leave it alone.
Is it just me or does this seem strange?
Is it just me or does this seem strange?
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
busy busy bee
I have made it a point to be as social as possible not turning down any chances to get out and mingle and so far things have been good. I have met several guys and been out quite often, of course the one guy that gave me the butterflies was the one that's not boyfriend material. Isn't it always like that! Any way a few weeks ago I got some extensions and I absolutely love my hair. I feel even more sexy, its great how simple things like changing your hair can make a women feel so good. I also am pretty happy with the results from my working out, I know I'm going to eat good food because I love food(shame) but I think I"m coming along pretty good considering this mom of three. I did have an ego boost this 26 y/o guy is totally interested me, which is really out of my comfort zone. When I started dating again it never really crossed my mind to date men of a younger age. I mean 26 is pretty young, not that I'm some old bitty but I'm not 26 either. Anyway I decided not to put on restrictions on dating, age and race is not an issue I"m open. Not that it was in the past its just something that never really crossed my mind.
I have alot of things going on and when I don't update my blog regularly I start to draw a blank. So I"m going to stay on top of blogging promise pinky swear.....
I have alot of things going on and when I don't update my blog regularly I start to draw a blank. So I"m going to stay on top of blogging promise pinky swear.....
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