I'm getting off at the next stop

So I continue to be on this roller coaster named bills, money and I am deciding the next go round I'm opting out.  It goes up and down causing nausea then, it takes a dramatic dip causing stomach pain called anxiety and I really hate when it gets all the way to the top and just leaves you dangling there causing you to just sit there and think!
  I use to be the person who under stress lost their appetite, well not anymore.  With all this worry I manage to think about what am I going to eat.  Cheese steak, Chinese, spaghetti or pancakes and eggs or better yet how about we go to Hibachi and spend the only $$ I have?! Yeah that's usually how it goes.  When did I turn to the emotional eater, if I could actually lose my appetite it may help.. I could actually lose a few pounds and during this stressful time I would be satisfied with that!  But of course the tide has turned and I am officially an eater during stressful times, great.


Miami........

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I'm so annoyed on so many levels, I really don't want to turn this blog into bitch fest.....
I came to work today and I'm here til 3pm, this doesn't bother me at all since I really don't care who or what holiday it is.(sorry just not into it)  I tell "the father" that I will be working because I just can't take off un paid and I pretty much know no one will be here and leaving at 3pm is great.  So of course he says its not problem since he's not working so he will just be with the kids.  Last nite he ask me can I just take Ase to work with me?  WTH?? How am I going to be here with a baby crawling around my office, I swear!  Now I know I didn't marry the sharpest tool in the shed but OMG.  So of course I'm not/can't/won't bring the baby to work.  I'm sure this is only b/c he wants to either participate or watch a football game outside.  Well believe it or not the kids won't melt, go into shock or explode if they sit outside for a few hours with you! 
Enough of that.......

So the other day a sister from my hall stops over to see me, which was rather nice.  I always appreciate the friends at my congregation interest in me and my family.  Helena is at least in her 60's but to talk to her you would not think so.  I have to admit I usually gravitate toward people who are older than I am.  But we talked and laughed and set up some time to get together.  She was watching another friend of ours daughter, so Deja and Ayanna played.  She left after an hour or so, I was smiling on the inside and she put on her tan leather jacket and picked up her matching hobo bag and got into the her Cadillac and drove off.

Last night I get a call from Spark energy asking if I would like to sign up with them and leave peco.  Now we all know I HATE peco so of course I was interested in what they had to say.  But I am always leary when people want to sign you up right now!  I asked plenty of questions and told them I will do some research and get back to them and see if its worth it.  The guy said ok and he will give me a call back next week.  Have anyone everyheard of them?  And does anyone have any other energy supplier besides Peco?

Well I just looked out the window and its snowing!

When I grow up

Oneday I will be a hot mom just like Jada ;-)
I don't have that much to go!

You betta work..............

"What other people think of me is not my business."
                                                
                                                                  —RuPaul

Did somebody turn the light out at the end of the tunnel?

just some background info first......

My son was diagnosed with asthma in Aug, after being hospitalized for the 2nd time.  He then went back into the hospital in Sept and was there for 8 days! Then turned around again in Oct and was there for 4 days.  Poor thing even turned 1 years old in hospital.  Yes needless to say CHOP has become our second home.  Of course during this time I was there at his bedside the whole time, because where else would mommy be.  I am fortunate to have a job where I am able to get FMLA.  During this difficult time of emotional ups and downs, stressing because here is my baby not even 1 years old struggling to breathe his dad still manages to be a prick.  And he completely knows he is being a prick since he says to my mom "I don't know why I'm be uncooperative".  Interesting revelation but anyway......
After getting him out of the hospital and feeling better which is the most important the entire month of Oct pasted.  Which turns out I worked 60hours for the entire month....UGGGGG!!  The equates to no $$$.  Of course I had no benefit time the summer just ended and we just got back from Disney world. Needless to say I am still trying to recover financially.  I am in catch up mood which is getting really really old! REALLY!  I was able to push my car note back for the month, which was great.  But what I don't understand is when you want to mis a payment why do you have to pay a fee.  If I don't have the money for the payment then what makes you think I have money to pay a fee??  So at this point I was calling ever possible bill/debt that I have and making arrangements and paying things that absolutely had to be paid.  Now here it is we are going into Dec. I am still trying to get it together.  I have not had a 80hour paycheck in 2 months.  I'm grateful to have good friends that are always willing to help me out, and vise versa.  And although he have his moments even outside of child support "the father" is always someone I can call and get something extra from.  But with all this going on I'm actually doing ok.  No haven't had the extra $$ that I like and use to but we are ok.  And that's the part that's getting on my nerves, I'm ready for this to be over for things to be back to normal.  But then again normal........?

This is were I sleep for over a week.....

being a mom.....

-Ase took his 1st steps last nite, i took my phone out to record it maybe I can upload it.  He is 13 months but what can I say he is the baby, a boy and we spoil him.  I am so glad to report that it seems is asthma is getting under control, now that he is on the allergy medicine.  They believe possible the allergies was aggravating the asthma is some cases.  I can definitely see a difference.  The Dr.'s and Nurses and CHOP are wonderful and great at what they do.  Every time(which is far too many) I go there I have an exceptional experience.  But I'm guessing the people that work there are all hand picked and I'm sure its difficult to get a job there.
-Ayanna wants a princess party, what you say......of course she's going to get a princess party!  I'm thinking she can dress up her guest can come dressed some cake a games.  I'm sure daddy will want things a little extra....  Ayanna has this new thing, when Ase is falling out and hitting(the usual 1 y/o shenanigans) she quickly interjects "mommy I like you".  Clearly letting me know he is the one mis behaving this time.
-Gia wants a graduation party, which is something else I can wait to plan for her.  She continues to be such a good girl(aside from typical growing pains) and a great big sister.  She also made student of the month for the month of November.  I also got test scores back for their standardized test and Gia continues to be advanced in math, now the reading comprehension....ummmmm.  But that is ok I told her exceptional at math is a wonderful thing and gives you lots of opportunities.
My kids are so funny, as I'm sure any mom will tell you. 

And since we are talking about being a mom Ebony and I have decided we are going back to South Beach for our annual mommy vaca.  The last time I was there I was pregnant so I'm sure we will have a different experience.  As usual our vaca will take place in the spring/early April, I"m excited.
And here is a pic of my crew, with princess tiana and her princess

Me a home owner :0.....

I just talk to a mortgage specialist and we went over somethings along with some numbers and things I need to do to get the house I want.  From the looks of it I could be in a home by Feb March, I am so excited.  I plan to stay in the area I am currently in.  I like it for the most part, Gia is in a good school and soon Ayanna will be in kindergarten.  I have looked at homes in the area Drexel hill, Lansdowne, Upper Darby and Clifton heights all areas I like.  One of my biggest things I need is a finished basement I also cant wait to entertain.  I love to have get together and friends over.

Today I wore black pumps that bought from Target I love love love them.  Although I hate the breaking in stage of shoes my left toe is killing me.  But its all worth the fashion, maybe I can figure out how to upload the pic and post them. 

postsecret who knew....

why not....

I have decided blogging may actually be something really good for me.  This is my first blog so excuse the possible rambling and run on sentences, lol.

Monday November 15, 2010....

Saturday Ebony and I took the kids to the Springfield mall despite the fact that we both we complaining of being broke.  I picked up the cutest black pumps with a 3' heel, perfect for work.  I got G some jeans which she needed bad, this girl is going so fast!  Ebony go the Taylor's ear's pierced and got a few things for Maniah who also is growing up so fast.  The had a great time as always and it was nice for the mommies to get out as well.  We went back to my place and ordered pizza.  We hung out for a while and they left.

Sunday....
I laid in bed as long as I could.  I didn't get up and go to the Hall and I feel really terrible about it.  I have to get myself back in gear.  I honestly am frustrated with constant get up and go routine.  Some days I just need to lay in my bed til I feel like getting up. 
Despite missing my meeting I did accomplish quite a few things over the weekend. 

A long time friend have invited me to a concert....USHER!  Yes he is coming to Wells Fargo center(formerly Wachovia ctr) on Dec. 16 I'm so excited.  This long time friend is a guy and for some reason have been making it known that he wants to hang out with me!  It kind of catches me off guard because I usually know why a guy is asking me out or wants to hang out with me.  But with him it kind of throws me off.  He's single no kids nice career and handsome.  So why does he want to spend his spear time with me?? Not to say that I'm some ugly duckling or something because we all know I'm one hot mama.....but I just have a lot on my plate.  And he is fully aware of my situation.  But anyway we are going to the concert and I have my outfit already picked out.