do you like like him or just like him?

Wow it has been a month since I have blog and honestly I was avoiding it for some odd reason.  Every time I would open up the internet I would intentionally not click on blogger, I wanna say I'm not sure what that was about but I think I know what it was about.  Its been totally about route 26, I didn't want to blog to much about him again why I don't know but when I think about I think its because I actually like him and it scares me.  It scares me for so many different reasons:

• I haven't like like someone in a really long time, hell lets face it I haven't like like someone since the father.  And in all honesty I don't know how I feel about that, the rebellious side of me says fuck it and just like the dam boy but the very rational side of me says no way get out now while its still early. 
• I think about why waste time and energy with someone and it doesn't go anywhere.  Not to say that he some loser dude and doesn't have a future because I wouldn't even bother with him if that was the case.  I just think the age difference is so drastic.  Yes he is quite younger than me but when we hanging out it doesn't feel that way.  He totally knows how to take control(which I like in a guy) he makes me feel sexy and attractive(not that I don't know I already am) and I just have a great time even when we just chillin at his place.
• Which leaves me back to the original bullet of it makes me nerves and scares me that I like him.  Of course I'm playing it cool just because that's my steez(style), he always make reference as to our future and what we are going to do, where we going to live and etc.  I think its cute.  He also drops settle statements like "I would be jealous if you were out with someone else", I know he likes me back but I'm more concerned with my feelings.  I don't want to be that woman who is scared to let go and like like someone, I guess because I know I'm not really like that.  We are going to Atlantic City this Friday to see Trey Songz and Big Sean in concert(pics coming), I'm so excited for the concert and to spend the weekend with him.

(sigh)